August 08, 2008
888! Many people think this is a lucky number. And this is the date for today. And they think they will become lucky today. That's why so many people have gone to the lotto outlets to bet their lucky numbers. Businessmen were excited to open their business on this date. Marami ang nag-iisip, whatever field they're into, there will be full of blessings and fortunes.
But behind all these beliefs, iniisip ko rin sarili ko. Magiging maswerte rin kaya ako sa araw na 'to? Sa lahat kaya ng aspeto ng buhay magkaroon ako ng magagandang kapalaran? Sa gitna ng mga tanong na'to hinahanap ko ang sarili ko kung saan ako aakma at kung kanino at kelan ko mahahanap ang sinasabi nilang swerte sa araw na ito?
Where do am I? Nasaan ga ba ako? Kahit aong lengguwahe pa ang gamitin ko sa paghahanap ng swerte, the bottom line is, makakmtan ko kaya ito? Matatagpuan ko kaya ito?
Ako? I am putting myself not just in one corner. Marami namang corner, eh. Paglabas ko ng kwarto hindi lang apat na sulok ang makikita ko. Sa unang hakbang ko pa lang paglabas ng pintuan, marami nang direksyon ang aking makikita na kailangan kong puntahan. At sa sobra ngang dami hindi ko na alam alin ang dapat kong unahin.
Kung minsan, o di kaya'y tamang sabihing kadalasan, ang pagpili ng tamang landas ay nakalilito. Hindi, mo kasi alam kung anong tinatahak mo. Wala kang katiyakan. Lahat na lang nang uang hakbang, pagbabakasakali ang nasa isip mo. "Sana ito na ang tamang daan". "Sana swertehin ako rito". "Sana pagdating ko sa dulo, may lilingunin akong magandang alaala sa aking nakaraan at masasabi kong sa wakas, nagtagumpay rin ako".
Sana nga ganun! Tulad nga ng sabi ko sa Friendster shoutout ko- "It is better to try but failed, than to fail without trying at all".
Napakagandang slogan. Kaya nga yan ang ginagawa ko kadalasan. Pero yun na nga, I'm always trying...and everytime I tried, I always did my best...but still...everything is ended up with failures! Pero sabi nga nila, sa bawat failures daw, there's a blessing in disguise. Dahil kung nagiging successful lang ako sa buhay, wala ako ngayon dito. Hindi ako makakapagsulat nang ganito. At higit sa lahat, hindi ako makapag-create ng sarili kong blog dito sa internet. Aba siyempre ibang pinagkakaabalahan ko ngayon. Pero hindi pa rin naman ako sumusuko. Sabi nga ng ilan- "Try and try until you succeed.
Pero sa ngayon, sa katayuan ko bilang isang trabahante sa isang pipitsugin at nalalaos ng kumpanya, hindi pa muna ako makakagawa ng ibang hakbang. Feeling ko, para akong nasa kulungan. Parang hindi ako malaya sa kinatatayuan ko ngayon. Gusto kong kumawala. At alam kong wala namang makakapagpigil sa akin kapag ginawa kong kumawala, eh. Kaya lang, feeling ko may isang bahagi ng aking pagkatao na pumipigil sa kung anumang binabalak ko. Hindi ko lang matukoy kung ano yun. Kunsabagay, feeling ko lang naman lahat ng ito, eh.
Ang buhay ko katulad din ng aking pagkatao. Hindi alam anong pipiliin. Nakakulong pa rin. Kasi....pag nakawala...marami ang masasaktan. Yun ay kung may masasaktan. Kung may manghihinayang... pag may nakatuklas. Pero katulad pa rin nga ng sabi ko, lahat ng ito,... feeling ko lang. May totoo... at sana may hindi totoo.
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My Diary
August 3, 2008
It was Sunday. I was expecting my day would be very busy since it is a holiday, and a famliy day to most people. And perhaps a religious day since most of the people are going to church. But for us who work in a chicken grilled house are quite busy during these days. That was my expectations. And that is what I thoughtwould be happen this day.
But I was wrong. Yes. Business is still operating. And daily habits are still working as a routine. Buy a few pieces chilled chicken in a department store or in a supplier. But t'was just a few pieces- just enough to operate to four active stores: Mabolo, Lahug, Wireless, and Lacion. We buy only few because we are only depending to the cash we have on hand.
Meaning, we're just doing the same thing over and over again. The sales we have in the morning will be collected to buy another goods wether in Makro or Mlhuillier. It depends on how many are sold, its amount is the only cash we can buy. The more, the plenty. The less- no comment! As long as there is a money that we can exchange for goods.
That same thing happened up to the evening. But it was a kinda hectic sked for me. I do have important meetings to attend to before 6pm. But the time we have in work does not commensurate to my scheduled meeting. I asked permission to my employer that I will be out at 5pm. Going to the church was my given reason so that he will allow me to go.
How important my meeting is? Well, all I can say is that it can evaluate my inner feelings, my decisions, what's my real score about my lovelife! Yes, I had a meeting with Christine. She was my girlfriend. I said "was" because we had just broke up just a month ago. Andnow we are going to meet again. For old time sake? Maybe. But no. I'm just giving back her clothes she left in Alcoy when she went there along with me wayback October and November 2007. (You can read the details of our relationship in the following page "What about my lovelife").
It was Sunday. I was expecting my day would be very busy since it is a holiday, and a famliy day to most people. And perhaps a religious day since most of the people are going to church. But for us who work in a chicken grilled house are quite busy during these days. That was my expectations. And that is what I thoughtwould be happen this day.
But I was wrong. Yes. Business is still operating. And daily habits are still working as a routine. Buy a few pieces chilled chicken in a department store or in a supplier. But t'was just a few pieces- just enough to operate to four active stores: Mabolo, Lahug, Wireless, and Lacion. We buy only few because we are only depending to the cash we have on hand.
Meaning, we're just doing the same thing over and over again. The sales we have in the morning will be collected to buy another goods wether in Makro or Mlhuillier. It depends on how many are sold, its amount is the only cash we can buy. The more, the plenty. The less- no comment! As long as there is a money that we can exchange for goods.
That same thing happened up to the evening. But it was a kinda hectic sked for me. I do have important meetings to attend to before 6pm. But the time we have in work does not commensurate to my scheduled meeting. I asked permission to my employer that I will be out at 5pm. Going to the church was my given reason so that he will allow me to go.
How important my meeting is? Well, all I can say is that it can evaluate my inner feelings, my decisions, what's my real score about my lovelife! Yes, I had a meeting with Christine. She was my girlfriend. I said "was" because we had just broke up just a month ago. Andnow we are going to meet again. For old time sake? Maybe. But no. I'm just giving back her clothes she left in Alcoy when she went there along with me wayback October and November 2007. (You can read the details of our relationship in the following page "What about my lovelife").
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